In(n)a Reflections…(sp2xpoetry- This is me)

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n(n)a Reflections



Teardrops
of molested Eyes
wash away formerly known Pain
as Seconds of Everyday caress a deeper Knowledge
brought by
…simple Life

Sexy to those – Who
allow….easily
Humanity
to reign over
what – They actually see….
…warm and welcoming Orange Shades
painted on what the Horizon has left
for the Afterglows of Compassion
and Love
……….incoherently
always something Positive to add
bit by bit…
……..helping IT
to keep shining
& Smiles alive…

A cleansed, even purified Soul
Is – whats left
Open…vulnerable
……often too numb
Yet free
….untamed & still
beautiful

……Dotz of Poetry trying to define
a mysteriously
…..behind security Walls, perfectly,
……………….well hidden

…She








9-12-08

….dotz…..

dotz
………..
from alpha
to omega
and right back……..
…
..
.
the Circle of life spinning the Wheel of Fortune
asking me to buy a “S” to connect the “oul”
for it needs Protection
& Love
to remain whole
….reaching out….

…..empty Pockets
……..empty Heart
Nothing
..but
dotz
..
.
Crystal Echoes
fill the air between unsaid Thoughts
and Movements of fearful Words
..
.
could – should – would & if
.
..

almost could feed a Regret
one of those which keep you guessing
if starving the Possibilities of “giving in”
would be a better Solution
or should the sweet Imagination
be just that…
….sweet
as the Silence
that surrounds my meaningless Walk
through Space
..through your Mind
…through Our Memories

i ‘d cry some more
so None of Everything we shared
was invain…
…but all I have left
from alpha’s inviting Ride
is
dotz….







4-24-09

untitled….

Liebesschmerz

i cannot put in words
what keeps me collapsing
…shattered…in pieces
unsorted & sharp
cutting the sweet little layers of sanity
into piercing splinters – burning the yet to come
healing flesh……
….until nothing is left but crazy longing
and the urge to swallow all wasted tears
to drown myself

choking up bitter lies
- a swamp of undenied whispers
still caressing the very core of passion
devotion…& whatever keeps my clock ticking
….the heart beating
………….the soul seeking
for truth or understanding – who really cares?

the wilderness of a desperate mind
will always cross “heart-set” limitations
burning eyes and unfair phrases – created
to
leave….

…no room for pride
but a second of reality’s disrespectful canto:

“No more i miss you Poems………..”

4-24-09

a symphony for you too!(adult cont)

one of da reasons why i have my millie jackson tat…:)

.:Acid Queen:.

Acid Queen

( inspired by Tina`s version of “Acid Queen” from the musical “Tommy”)

born: grown
home: unknown
me: a loan

gypsy feet
walk on
gypsy paths, only
but
if you are ever able to catch me
in peaceful sunsets
you will see my shadows
seducing your
souls`s sweet steadiness
magically moved
respectful whispers from your longing lips
so easily caressed…

I can make you mine
…in just one night
my soft hands will show
unlimited universes
fulfilled freedoms &
heal a hopscotch hue and cry
with all my might
…in humble gypsy commands

just make sure
…My Dear…
you let me pass by
because
this is not a place for me to be–
restless-ly re-saling ruins
of former flattered fictions
I will make sure
you`ll find some mercy
basking beautifully
with Someone Else
in Love`s lasting Vows..

The Acid Queen`s Life
can be cruel and hard
-a neverending work-
so
pay me before
I start!

i…..

dislike moving….dangit

T.O.Y. (writin X Sp2)

T.o.Y.


They invade me
……..They
suck blood from my heart
to the tiny corners of my clouded mind
…Thoughts of You….
massive & heavy imaginations
of how things could and would be
if we had only
one minute…….together

60 seconds to give birth to a new path
underneath the shining azure of a perfectly shaped sky
firework creations in both of our brains
will be deafening falsifications of society´s
incoherend and deflated excuses
for Us not being One
………is simply dumb!

so,
I let Them
invade and explore
wander from the highest throne to the deepest doubt
the most acclimated to the wildest hemisphere
until i feel Your presence
completely near…




9/24/08

(back den, when i was in love *sigh*)

.:Fak – Q!:.

Fak – Q



today
im done giving
embracing your worries
listen to your sorry-
ass life burdens and what not
else you have to complain about
i am weak
( too small to even shout)
i cant stand
im only human
with one gentle hand
and one
that will smack the last piece of pity
out of your coward mind
getta steppin
outta my way——>…..

owe – do i sound unkind?
prolly cos…i am
tired-drained-life sustained
i cant breathe…at ease
so leave me alone
Pleeeeaaaaase!
just give me some space to exhale
your daily blah blah blee gets stale
inside my sleepless heart
walking thin lines of acceptance
all the fak q´in time
tear my soul apart…..
and i just cannot focus on whats real
and how to feel
……..myself

So stop….STOP!……..!

the blood sucking
shit mocking
revolving door love rocking
wanna be good
and understood
sermon
of self justification

talk to the hand
my time needs to be spend
in healthy company
and right now
that would only  be
…me





8-21-08

i am lissnin to my

latest music project

Camilles Garden

*mmmmmhmmmmm*

notha Poem .:Addicted:.

AdDiCtEd

let me smoke one
or two
more of these killers
so the pain won´t cut too deep
and tomorrow will hold a brighter sun
among those clouds of
paralysing numbness in my chest

exhaling the grey bitter scent
of selfquestioning doubts

maybe tonight I will sleep

just let me drink one
or two
more of these marygorounds
so my constantly focusing mind
will stop chasing sweetness inside
your spoiling & inviting words
building up wrong selfesteem inside of me

swallowing crystal clear liquor
of a new found cleansing spring

maybe tonight I will sleep

just let me live one
or two
more of those fantasies we created
in new exposed visions of embracing flesh
while pretending every healing lick of
each others wounds
would erase scars & bruises
the past left in our souls

loving every moment of these dreams
yet knowing…they will never be
Reality

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